Bullet Train.

Bullet Train by Stephen Swartz Ft. Joni Fatora

Someone recently introduced me to this song. I am in love with it.

Like a, like a, like a bullet train

Moving like the speed of sound

Feet can't keep on the ground

Can't stay in one place

Keep moving like a bullet train

Like a bullet train

(Repeat)

like, like, like a bullet train

like, like, like a bullet train

'Cause I can't stop time

You keep blurring in my mind

And space is undefined

These tracks left behind

We can't stay the same

Can't stop this train

I can't find the breaks

On this bullet train 

'Cause I can't stop 

candles & wine.

Hello my lovelies.

I have a feeling you'll like this post a lot. I had an amazing time on this night and I am so excited to share it with all of you. As you all know, my boyfriend travels a lot for his job. A couple nights ago he told me he'd be coming home for the night just to see me. He drove roughly two hours and arrived to the college at about 8:40 pm. He made reservations at a restaurant in downtown Petoskey called Chandlers, which was a total surprise to me. 

Earlier in that day my best friend, Sandi, and I went shopping for a new outfit. We wanted to find something fancy that I could wear out.

We found a classy little black dress,

with lace and buttons all up the back

and a belt in the front to dress it up. 

I was so very excited for the outing.

I wanted him to look at me all night.

The lace was a really nice touch.

The open back showed my skin.

He told me all night how great I looked.

I felt really good and I finally got to relax.

I'm so thankful for Sandi. 

I don't think I could have

picked out a better dress.

Our dinner was more than amazing.

I didn't expect it to go as well as it did.

Everything was so perfect, it all felt so right.

We ate in a wine cellar and it was really romantic. 

Candles.

Dinner.

Wine.

Him.

Me.

Us.

♥

& i can't even describe how wonderful it all was. 

maybe that's what love feels like.

so indescribably wonderful.

surely i can get used to it.

tahquamenon falls.

Hello my lovelies,

I think you should all know about some exciting news. I'm not going to hide it anymore!

I'm in a new relationship!

Seriously, I couldn't be happier. Branden and I have known each other since eighth grade and on September 15th, eight days after Garret and I broke up for the last time, we started talking again. That night he took me out to dinner and since then we've been on four dates. Our last date was to Tahquamenon Falls. We went on October 5th and have been together since then.

The falls were beautiful. I hope you enjoy them as much as I did. (o:

I'm so glad I was able to share this experience with such a special person. Everything about that day was perfect. We couldn't have gone at a more perfect time of the year. ♥

I Knew You Were Trouble.

I Knew You Were Trouble by Taylor Swift

Taylor's new album 'Red' is looking good so far. This is the third song I've heard from it and I am in love! You can get it in stores October 22nd!

Once upon a time, a few mistakes ago, 

I was in your sights, you got me all alone. 

You found me. 

You found me. 

You found me. 

I guess you didn't care, and I guess I liked that, 

And when I fell hard, you took a step back. 

Without me 

Without me 

Without me 

And he's long gone, when he's next to me, 

And I realize the blame is on me. 

Chorus 

'Cause I knew you were trouble when you walked in. 

So shame on me now 

Flew me to places I'd never been. 

'Till you put me down. 

Oh, I knew you were trouble when you walked in. 

So shame on me now 

Flew me to places I'd never been. 

Now I'm lying on the cold hard ground. 

Oh, Oh 

Trouble, Trouble, Trouble. 

Oh, Oh 

Trouble, Trouble, Trouble. 

No apologies, he'll never see you cry, 

Pretends he doesn't know that he's the reason why. 

You're drowning 

You're drowning 

You're drowning 

Now I heard you moved on, from whispers on the street, 

A new notch in your belt is all I'll ever be. 

And now I see, 

now I see, 

now I see. 

He was long gone when he met me, 

And I realize the joke is on me. 

Chorus 

Oh, Oh 

Trouble, Trouble, Trouble. 

Oh, Oh 

Trouble, Trouble, Trouble. 

And the saddest fear, comes creeping in, 

That you never loved me, or her, or anyone, or anything, yeaaaa. 

Chorus 

Oh, Oh 

Trouble, Trouble, Trouble. 

Oh, Oh 

Trouble, Trouble, Trouble. 

I knew you were trouble when you walked in. 

Trouble, trouble, trouble. 

I knew you were trouble when you walked in. 

Trouble, trouble 

Someday in the Future.

Someday in the Future

a poem written by me.

10/1/12

Summer had come and gone,

Before I could look to see where it was going.

Pieces left behind were part of a bigger picture,

But I had no way of knowing.

What was to come?

What was in store?

I knew it was time to move forward;

Time to choose a new door.

But we never really know,

What the future is holding.

Sometimes we aim to predict it,

Based on how the past has been unfolding.

The past has never looked darker,

But to get better it has to be bad first.

There’s comfort in knowing that.

And three weeks ago things were at their worst.

A week after it all happened,

Your message came through.

It was unexpected as always,

Completely out of the blue.

I quit what I was doing,

And pulled my phone out to take a peek.

I was expecting a pitiful message from him,

After all, it had only been one week.

But when I looked down,

My heart rate burst through the roof.

I was so happy:

To tell the honest-to-God truth.

You wanted to know if I’d like to hang out.

And I didn’t know what to say.

The timing was oddly convenient,

I didn’t have time to think all day.

I wanted to really think it over.

Just like you know I always do.

But I didn’t have sufficient time to decide.

What I should say to you.

I reviewed each of my choices quickly,

However I remained as stagnant as ever.

But time was ticking.

It was now or never.

Spontaneity won me over,

I promised myself I wouldn’t go through it again.

After that night I couldn’t help feeling like,

This time would be different from back then.

It wasn’t until I got out of my car,

that I realized how bad my hands were shaking.

And it wasn’t until after our dinner.

That I was excited for the plans we were making.

That night I made a decision,

I decided I was done turning away.

It was September 15^th.

I made up my mind that day.

And you had no idea.

You probably still don’t.

I’m sure you probably think this is temporary-

That I’ll stop talking, but I won’t.

I keep imagining you in my life,

There’s nothing I want more.

I’m truly sorry,

I didn’t realize it before.

All this time we tried to keep each other out 

But kept finding our way back in.

There’s nothing we can do.

It’s time to give in.

Just four days later,

We were seeing each other again.

That night we made further plans,

I could hardly wait until then.

Friday September twenty first,

You took me to the Perry Hotel.

I had such a nice time that night.

You really made my heart swell.

You picked me up,

You drove us there,

And I loved every second of it.

It’s true, I swear.

You opened my door,

You helped me out and held my hand.

And you gave me a piggy back ride,

When I couldn’t stand.

You paid for yet another dinner,

And a movie that night too.

And you don’t know how nice that is…

But I do.

You dropped me off that night,

And we said goodbye.

I thought of the upcoming 17 days without you.

And let out an internal sigh.

Seconds after our hug,

The clock read 10:42.

I glanced up with a big smile,

And you grinned too.

The next thing I knew,

You were driving away.

Something wasn’t right.

It felt weird to end this way.

Not even five minutes later,

A message came through.

“Can I come back and see you for a minute?”

Of course I wanted you to.

I stood in the light of a street lamp,

I could barely contain myself when you pulled in.

I lost track of time when you took my hands,

I don’t know how long it’d been.

But you came with an explanation,

About why you’d come back so suddenly.

17 days was too long to think about,

How you didn’t, but should have kissed me.

You finished your sentence and pulled me in,

And for a very brief few seconds our lips met.

And everything about that short time,

I still have yet to forget.

Feeling fuzzy all over,

I walked back inside.

I couldn’t stop smiling.

Not even if I tried.

But then once I realized,

That three weeks must go by,

I wasn’t sure I could not see you.

But I decided I would try.

It’s been 11 days so far,

And I’m doing okay.

Hearing your voice every night,

Is what I look forward to during the day.

And every single night,

Just as we end the conversation.

I want to whisper, ‘I love you.’

But something causes my hesitation.

But this Friday I hope,

We can see each other once more.

An adventure to Tahquamenon Falls:

Date number four.

And It’s hard to say,

It’s hard to be sure.

If by that time,

You could be more.

More than some guy,

More than a friend.

More than what you were,

Way back when.

But we never really know,

What the future is holding.

I’m trying to predict it,

Based on how our time together has been unfolding.

If I know one thing for sure,

It’s that time will continue to go.

And what’s in the picture we’re painting,

Someday in the future we’ll know.

Begin Again.

Begin Again by Taylor Swift

This song is so great. I'm so happy that she posted this at midnight. It totally describes my life right now.

Take a deep breath in the mirror, he didn't like it when I wore high heels but I do.
Turn the lock and put my headphones on, he always said he didn't get this song but I do. I do.
Walked in expecting you'd be late but you got here early and you stand and wait I walk to you.
You pulled my chair out and helped me in, and you don't know how nice that is but I do.

And you throw your head back laughing like a little kid.
I think it's strange that you think I'm funny cause he never did.
I've been spending the last eight months thinking all love ever does is break, and burn, and end.
But on a Wednesday, in a cafe...I watched it begin again.

He said he never met one girl who had as many James Taylor records as you but I do.
We tell stories and you don't know why you're coming off a little shy but I do.

And you throw your head back laughing like a little kid.
I think it's strange that you think I'm funny cause he never did.
I've been spending the last eight months thinking all love ever does is break, and burn, and end.
But on a Wednesday, in a cafe...I watched it begin again.

And we walk down the block to my car and I almost brought him up.
But you start to talk about the movies that your family watches every single Christmas and I will talk about that for the first time.
What's past is past.

Cause you throw your head back laughing like a little kid.
I think it's strange that you think I'm funny cause he never did.
I've been spending the last eight months thinking all love ever does is break, and burn, and end.
But on a Wednesday, in a cafe...I watched it begin again.

But on a Wednesday, in a cafe...I watched it begin again.

Tomorrow

Tomorrow by Chris Young

It's unfortunate that I have to post this song. We both saw it coming, though. Happens every time. Goodbye Captain Ahab. Your white whale has, once again, fled from your reach.

Tomorrow I'm gonna leave here

I'm gonna let you go and walk away like every day I said I would

And tomorrow, I'm gonna listen

To that voice of reason inside my head telling me that we're no good

[Chorus:]

But tonight I'm gonna give in one last time

Rock you strong in these arms of mine

Forget all the regrets that are bound to follow

We're like fire and gasoline

I'm no good for you

You're no good for me

We only bring each other tears and sorrow

But tonight, I'm gonna love you like there's no tomorrow

Tomorrow I'll be stronger

I'm not gonna break down and call you up when my heart cries out for you

And tomorrow, you won't believe it,

But when I pass your house,

I won't stop no matter how bad I want to

[Chorus:]

But tonight I'm gonna give in one last time

Rock you strong in these arms of mine

Forget all the regrets that are bound to follow

We're like fire and gasoline

I'm no good for you

You're no good for me

We only bring each other tears and sorrow

But tonight, I'm gonna love you like there's no tomorrow

Baby when we're good, you know we're great

But there's too much bad for us to think that there's anything worth trying to save

[Chorus:]

But tonight I'm gonna give in one last time

Rock you strong in these arms of mine

Forget all the regrets that are bound to follow

We're like fire and gasoline

I'm no good for you

You're no good for me

We only bring each other tears and sorrow

But tonight, I'm gonna love you like there's no tomorrow

Tomorrow, I'm gonna leave here

I'm gonna let you go and walk away like every day I said I would.

"it's a shame about the weather...

Hello my lovelies.

I know it's been about five days since I last posted. I've been very sick the past two weeks and between work and trying to kick two infections, I'm exhausted. But I have a few pictures for you that cover what I've done over the course of the last few days. Enjoy! (o:

After Garret and my break up I've begun to see everything differently.

This was my very interesting horoscope I had the other day.

It fits my thoughts and the situation I'm in perfectly.

I don't put much faith in horoscopes though.

Just thought it was humorous.

The past five days have been full of work work work.

It's basically all I ever do. But that's very okay. 

I need money anyways so bring it on.

It does get stressful, however,

some people are very kind.

like the girl who left this.

I've also been doing a lot of this lately. Just chillin' out with my little dog in bed.

Because I've been so sick lately I have to use any free time I have to rest.

Being awake all night and vomiting makes for a great reason to sleep in.

Little Cody dog doesn't mind me sleeping in. He enjoys it too.

We both need our beauty sleep ;o)

I've also had a lot of college stuff going on. A friend of mine convinced me of something.

So, now I have put in my housing application for the dorms at the college.

So instead of living at home, I'll be paying a little extra to be close.

Close to class, and people, and friends, and town, and work.

And everything else. I'm very excited. 

This is everything I'll have to take.

BEFORE the nursing program.

I know, right? Yikes..

And this is me today, feeling 100% better than yesterday, but not 100% well just yet.

Canoe trip starting today, and we're about to head four hours away shortly here.

BUT, before I go. Here's a nice list I stole from my cousin over at Ivory Giraffes. (o:

Before I go, I want to share with you that I am currently,

Loving work on a Thursday night because I get to listen to Cedar Straits lead singer, Will Springsteen, who I love to drool over. Someday he'll be mine. ;o)

Reading Fifty Shades Darker, the second of the Fifty Shades trilogy, and it is so so so so good and I'll probably finish it on our way down state today and start the last book.

Watching the days go by. Summer is nearly over and it doesn't even feel like it has barely started! I can't believe it. Yes, take a quick glance at the calendar...Your mind has officially been blown.

Thinking About when I should get a hold of the business office at the college so I can pay my housing fee. Also thinking about the awesome weekend I'm about to have. And which flavor of ice cream I'd be if I could because facebook just asked me.

Anticipating living in the dorms with some of my best friends because it is going to be a fricken blast. I'm gonna have to pack up all my stuff really soon. Oh joy, all over again.

Listening to Colder Weather by Zac Brown band. Only because Cedar Straits sang it so well last night.

Working on compiling a list of all the things I need to buy and pack for my dorm! I am so excited. Only 25 more days!! ((o:

Wishing I knew if I could let Captain Ahab catch his White Wale.

...but I know soon we'll be together, and I can't wait till then..."

Little Talks

Little Talks by Of Monsters & Men

Someone pointed this song out to me. Ever since then I can't get it out of my head and when I hear it I think of them instantly. I don't know if that's a good thing or a bad thing...

Hey! Hey! Hey!

I don't like walking around this old and empty house.

So hold my hand, I'll walk with you my dear

The stairs creak as I sleep,

it's keeping me awake

It's the house telling you to close your eyes

Some days I can't even dress myself.

It's killing me to see you this way.

'Cause though the truth may vary

this ship will carry our bodies safe to shore.

Hey! Hey! Hey!

There's an old voice in my head

that's holding me back

Well tell her that I miss our little talks.

Soon it will all be over, buried with our past

We used to play outside when we were young

and full of life and full of love.

Some days I feel like I'm wrong when I am right.

Your mind is playing tricks on you my dear.

'Cause though the truth may vary

This ship will carry our bodies safe to shore

Hey!

Don't listen to a word I say

Hey!

The screams all sound the same.

Hey!

Though the truth may vary

this ship will carry our bodies safe to shore

You're gone, gone, gone away,

I watched you disappear.

All that's left is a ghost of you.

Now we're torn, torn, torn apart,

there's nothing we can do,

Just let me go, we'll meet again soon.

Now wait, wait, wait for me, please hang around

I'll see you when I fall asleep.

Hey!

Don't listen to a word I say

Hey!

The screams all sound the same.

Hey!

Though the truth may vary

this ship will carry our bodies safe to shore

Hey!

Don't listen to a word I say

Hey!

The screams all sound the same.

Hey!

Though the truth may vary

this ship will carry our bodies safe to shore (x3)

Crash.

Crash by You Me At Six

This is a beautiful song. I'm so happy I stumbled across it.

Wait, where you say you've been? 

Who you been with? 

Where you say you're goin'? 

Who you goin' with? 

Keep me on my toes, 

keep me in the know. 

Wait, keep me in your skin, 

keep me in your chest. 

I'll wait for it to start, 

I'll wait for it to end. 

Keep me on my toes, 

keep me in the know. 

But when I looked at her, 

I thought of only you. 

If only there was proof I could use to show it's true. 

We were young, 

we were in our teens. 

It wasn't real love, 

spent behind bars. 

Oh it's sad to think, 

we just let it be. 

Prisoners of love. 

It's so easy for it to be, 

something second guessed. 

Easy to read, 

don't let it become, 

a meaningless routine. 

It's meaningless to me. 

But when I looked at her, 

I thought of only you. 

If only there was proof I could use to show it's true. 

Just crash, fall down, 

I'll wrap my arms around you now. 

Just crash, it's our time now, 

to make this work second time around. 

We grew up, 

we worked and changed our ways. 

Just like wildfire, 

been burning now for days. 

Tearing down those walls, 

nothing's in our way. 

I said, nothing's in our way. 

And I know, 

I've said this all before, 

but opposites attract. 

We try and run away, 

but end up running back. 

And all I want to do, 

all I want to do, 

is lie down and... 

Crash, fall down. 

I'll wrap my arms around you now. 

Just crash, it's our time now, 

to make it work, second time around. 

Ohhh crash, fall down. 

Just crash, fall down. 

Just crash, fall down. 

Just crash, fall down.

Old Scars Become New.

Wasted time,

shattered hearts.

Two lost souls,

in the dark.

One problem,

with no solution.

Two individuals,

searching for resolution.

Answers burried,

deep down inside. 

But I can't dig deep enough.

Trust me. I've tried.

I have secrets,

I don't even know what they are.

It's better that way,

we don't need more scars.

Better to forget each other now,

than to hold on.

It's too hard;

time to move on.

But time always lapses,

old scars become new.

You keep slicing, but,

my blood is still red, not blue.

My mind won't change,

no matter how long you stay.

We need to base life on tomorrow,

not the choices of yesterday.

I wish there was a way,

if I knew how to,

I'd tell you my reasons,

why I did what I had to do.

You'd never understand,

even if I could explain.

You couldn't handle it;

the pure truth, that's pain.

It makes no sense,

but that's life.

So I'll ask one more time:

put down your knife.

Please leave me be;

our old scars unsliced.

Accept my answer this time,

& move on with your life.

Doing It Wrong.

Doing It Wrong by Drake

I stumbled across this song just yesterday night. I am in love with Drake. This song is just great because it is my most favorite type of music. The kind that has meaning that is nice and slow and pretty sounding.

God, I miss you so much.

When a good thing goes bad it's not the end of the world

It's just the end of a world, that you had with one girl

And she's the reason it happened, but she's overreacting

And it's all because she don't want things to change

So cry if you need to, but I can't stay to watch you

That's the wrong thing to do

Touch if you need to, but I can't stay to hold you

That's the wrong thing to do

Talk if you need to, but I can't stay to hear you

That's the wrong thing to do

Cause you'll say you love me, and I'll end up lying

And say I love you too

But I need someone different

You know it, oh ho, you know it

Oh ho, you know it, we both know it

I need someone different

You know it, oh ho, you know it

Oh ho, you know it, we both know it

Something's been missing

You know it, oh ho, she knows it

Oh ho, I know it, we all know it

I need someone different

(Oh ho, oh ho)

We live in a generation of, not being in love, and not being together

But we sure make it feel like we're together

Cause we're scared to see each other with somebody else

So cry if you need to, but I can't stay to watch you

That's the wrong thing to do

Touch if you need to, but I can't stay to hold you

That's the wrong thing to do

Talk if you need to, but I can't stay to hear you

That's the wrong thing to do

Cause you'll say you love me, and I'll end up lying

And say I love you too

But I need someone different

You know it, oh ho, you know it

Oh ho, you know it, we both know it

I need someone different

You know it, oh ho, you know it

Oh ho, you know it, we both know it

Something's been missing

You know it, oh ho, she knows it

Oh ho, I know it, we all know it

I need someone different

(Oh ho, oh ho)

100 questions! (part 2)

For some reason I accidentally skipped over numbers 41 and 42. So, The answers are written under the actual question. Also, I know I'm squinting. Sorry haha.

26. What is your dream job? 

27. What is the most painful injury in your life so far?

28. What's your favorite Newspaper/ Magazine? 

29. Which celebrity do you like the most? 

30. What religion are you? 

31. Do you have any siblings? 

32. Have you ever been in the hospital?  

33. Have you ever broken a bone or had stitches? 

34. Do you believe in Angels/Ghosts/Demons? 

35. Are you superstitious? 

36. What colour eyes do you have? 

37. What colour hair to you have? 

38. If you could change 1 thing about your appearance, what would it be? 

39. If you could change 1 thing about your personality, what would it be? 

40. What is your biggest fear? 

41. Do you have any regrets? If so, what are they? 

Yes, but if I didn't do everything I've done up to this point, I wouldn't be who I am today.

42. Have you ever been in love? 

Of course, two times. Now, and before #42. How convenient, this question falls right on the number 42.

43. What's the most important thing to you in the world? 

44. What your most treasured possession? 

45. What's your job? 

46. What's the nicest thing anyone has ever done for you? 

47. What's the worst thing anyone has done to you? 

48. What is your dream car? 

49. What is your favorite celebration? 

50. Where do you want to live? 

almost satisfactory.

Today has been an absolutely fantastic day. I've done just about everything I could have possibly wanted to do in a usual, single day. I woke up early but was still able to sleep in. I blogged this morning for a bit. Then I had a nice breakfast of toast with apple jelly and animal crackers. After that I decided to play The Sims 3 for a couple hours. A little later I decided to curl up on the couch in my snuggie and start reading a book which I'll do a full report and prepare a speech on for my final English exam. Then I ate some delicious ramen. Halfway through the book I cleaned out the bathroom cupboards and took my nose ring out for the very first time (in almost two years (since July 2010)).

After I cleaned the ring and my nose, I did my face a favor by plucking my eyebrows and putting on a face mask for a good 15 minutes. Then I sat back down on the couch and finished my book, which was rather good. I'm verrrrry surprised that it was on the list my English teacher gave us to choose from. Who would have thought, Sherlock Holmes?!

After I finished The Hound of the Baskervilles I took a nice relaxing shower and I shaved my legs. I love shaving my legs; because I do it so rarely it just feels so nice and fresh when I finally get a chance to do it. Then I put on some lotion and drove myself 8 minutes to the good old Carp Lake store to treat myself for my accomplishments today with some lemonade and orange slices, which have been my favorite as of late. And for only $1.99 I was able to buy at least a two day supply of goodies for the bump and myself ♥

On the way home from the store I heard like five of my favorite songs in a row which never happens and was super great. Then when I got home I read a little bit of Dear John by Nicholas Sparks and shortly after took a little stroll up the dark drive way with my dog to see the full moon which will not be this close to the Earth for another 40 years.

It certainly is magnificent. My iPhone does not do it justice.

But it still isn't any bigger than my thumb or yours. 

Not here at home where I sit.

Not where ever you happen to be tonight.

No matter where we are, ever.

My God, it's been a long time... 

So my plans for the rest of the night, before bed, are to watch Remember Me, to text my boyfriend as he is getting out of work in just under an hour, and to sip pink lemonade until there is no more. Goodnight my lovelies. ♥