as of late...

Good afternoon lovelies,

I'm probably in one of the crappiest moods ever today. Not even just today, I can't lie anymore, I have to be honest with someone about how I'm currently feeling. I hate growing up. End of story.

I can't even blog regularly like I was able to during the school year, because I work too much now.

And when I'm not at work, I'm at 'home' dealing with a bunch of bs.

And 'home' isn't even home.

Which is why I'm moving back.

There. I said it.

Decision made.

I had to go to the college to get some things for my financial aid straightened out.

And afterwards, I went to Big Apple Bagels for a Cinnamon Crumb Cake muffin and some hot chocolate.

I was hoping it would make me feel better.

But as I sat there, 

sipping my hot chocolate,

picking at my muffin,

and feeling 

sorry

for myself,

I realized something.

I don't have to do anything

that I don't want to.

And I'm not going to. So I'm coming home.

I don't care what any one says about me. Sometimes you have to do what's best for you. And I think it is.

So I went to work, and I had a crappy night. 

But when I got home, 

I took a long hot shower.

I had a nice cold drink,

And I went to bed.

And when I woke up, I got ready.

And I thought about all the things that I can change.

And now,

I'm changing them. 

One at a time.

Because I dont have to do anything I don't want to.

And because this life is about me.

Not anyone 

else.